What I want in life

In 2013 it was the first time to think about getting pierced and I did, it wasn't trendy and spread like now, people kept asking me about it, is it hurting or not, where you did it, you weren't afraid to do so?!

It was in my nose and it didn't last for long as it fell while I was sleeping and closed, and I got pierced again and again and it wasn't lasting for a long time, someone asked me then why you did it, and my answer was " I found it interesting, I want to do something new, and I continued saying "I want to have my own authority on my body, the right to get pierced without any permission or approval from anybody." 

Now I have a lot of piercings, in my nose, my ears, and my eyebrow which I was so nervous about it, I didn't think of doing it before but I had the idea popped out in my head and I did it, and I felt so happy after.

Two days ago I tried to remove the studs from my ears after a very long time, but I couldn't, and I felt that I really don't want to do that. I felt I'm guarded by all these studs that I'm putting, and if I remove or exchange any of them they will be lost or may I will do.